Foot At the Door

foot at the door

waiting for you

call me back

tell me, "Stay"

moving forward

moving on

away from you

far from this

looking back, reminiscing

love so true, all for you

happy times, i miss them

i miss US, long gone

foot at the door

waiting for you

your voice, your touch

ask me, "Stay"

start anew, chin up

walk away, head high

do what i have to

move away from you

years we shared, i remember

tears i shed, for what it used to be

this is the last, please

let me move far away

foot at the door

waiting for you

to stop me

make me stay

my foot at the door

one step more

i'll be gone, won't look back

will you let me?

will you stop me?

silence from you, not a word

foot at the door

no looking back, no reprieve

foot forward, then the other

walk away now, don't look back

give up, walk away

Wishes and Prayers

one should never say' "i wish"

for wishes never come true

one should always say, "i pray"

for with prayers, one can move mountains

throughout my heartaches

through all my pain

with my every teardrop

i often wished

and seldom prayed

with that said

i now realize my faults

i wished that you were my missing half

that we were soulmates

i wished that we would last

beyond eternity

i wished we would be together

even in the afterlife

i wished forever with you

but look at us now

i pray for your happiness

i pray for your peace of mind

know that you'll always have a part of me

the part i know i can live without

i WILL be whole without you

for that is what i prayed for

and prayers are ALWAYS answered

Love

love God above all

love others as you love yourself..

i have a lot of love to give

i give them to my family, my friends, my pets, and my stuff

i give my love unconditionally and without expectations

if you love me back, i 'll love you more

if you hurt me, then it's karma for you

my love is not measured by how often i talk to you

nor is it seen in the material things i share

i express love in small ways;

i think of the people i love

i worry about them

i pray for them

i love wholeheartedly

and it comes from the soul

Brand of Cheating

in light of everything that has happened, i have this overwhelming urge to spill my guts and air my side of the story.. so here it goes....

let me start by saying that I HAVE NEVER CLAIMED TO BE PERFECT OR ANYTHING EVEN REMOTELY RELATED, nor have any of my friends, as far as I know.. yes, most of the time, I am loud, opinionated (have always been); i get my nose stuck in issues that are of relatively low relevance to me and where i'm not even involved.. i am tactless, i seldom think before i talk, my mouth and emotions get the better of me, i even admit that i'm bitchy.. BUT I CAN TRUTHFULLY SAY THAT I HAVE NOT CLAIMED TO BE THE IDEAL PERSON.. therefore, it's not my fault if anybody gets intimidated by my presence, the way i behave, or if they get offended by my humor, or anything as much.. i'm just being ME, no more no less.. i work hard to get to where i am, to achieve my goals.. I APOLOGIZE IF NECESSARY.. i don't use others, nor take advantage of their kindness.. i accept help, cause i know i can't do everything on my own but I HAVE NEVER BEEN A PARASITE.. i try to do things on my own and compare my work to see if i've understood everything correctly.. being human, there are days when my laziness gets the better of me, but I HAVE NEVER MADE IT A HABIT TO RELY ON OTHERS TO DO ALL THE HARDWORK FOR ME AND THEN CLAIM THEIR WORK AS MINE.. if i learn something new, i enthusiastically share it with everyone i know.. eversince i've started going to school, i've always been generous with my knowledge.. i don't care if i get acknowledged or not, i'm happy knowing others learned through me.. if i correct my friends, it's not my intent to embarrass.. all i want is for them not to commit the same mistake twice, especially in front of strangers though sometimes the intent doesn't get through and everything gets misinterpreted..

cheating is generally bad but we must all accept that it happens..  i do my share, i review, i study, and prepare myself as much as i can but everyone's brain has limits.. I ASK FOR CLUES DURING EXAMS, yes BUT I DO NOT OPEN MY BOOK, MY NOTEBOOK, WRITE THE ANSWER/ GUIDE ON MY PALM OR ON ANOTHER SHEET OF PAPER.. if i can't answer the questions anymore, i simply pass my answer sheet and leave it there.. i do not ask as much as i can and i don't make it a HABIT..

we've already tolerated too much.. it's not fair that we work hard and YOU DON'T, but we all pass.. do not wash the guilt off your hands.. if you get caught, then face the consequences of your actions.. do not try to alienate the people who are only trying to survive without stepping on others simply because they got tired of your brand of cheating..

i've said my piece.. this is it..

Expressions

The world must be really going to hell on a sled.. Sheesh.....

Lately, whenever I turn on the televison, listen to news, or even read the papers, I'm bombarded with the sorry state our society is in.. Killings, abuse, tragedy.. The world is full of them, so I hear.. It's truly sad and disturbing.. Even the governments of the supposedly civilized world we're in have also been subjected to intrigues and ridicule, and so has been the church where we rely for spiritual guidance and enlightenment..

For this I can't blame cause- oriented groups for demanding justice and order, expressing what they want through different media: the internet, periodicals, movies, music.. Some of them resort to the old- fashion way: rallies.. This is what has bothered me since I was a teen..

The Philippines, being a democratic country, has its share of groups marching down the streets expecting government officials to hear and heed what they say.. Our country has been famous for our bloodless revolution in 1986: the EDSA People Power.. Since that time, Filipino organizations showed more boldness in expressing what they think, using their united voices to demand what they think they should be getting.. We are, yes we are, entitled to freedom of expression, and there are times that we use this to get what we think we deserve from our government..

I completely agree; we need to say what we have in mind.. It also is what's at heart of a free country.. But don't you think that this right we have to express ourselves has already been abused? Time and again, our government has been exposed to unflattering issues that has tarnished the trust we have in our system.. I understand that but what I don't understand is that for even the smallest stuff, like an irresponsible commuter getting involved in an accident, or even the increase in the prices of global commodites such as oil in which our government has no control of, some people go to the streets and scream their demands? Isn't that a bit too much? Shouldn't we, the citizens, who are the foundation of our sovereignty, just work with each other in building a better community and therefore a more organized country?

Take the garbage collection system for example.. Yes, the government should set up a clear system in the collection, that's a given.. But wouldn't you agree that disposal and segregation of our wastes should start at home? And then our local government unit, the barangay system, should set up a recycling and compost- making center in each community to lessen the burden on our national government and in the end lessen the terrible effects in nature and therefore saving ourselves from the effects of natural calamities like typhoons and floods? Wouldn't that be a better matter to expend our energy on, to devote our time and efforts to, instead of rallying up our fellowmen, saying things that would stir up negative emotions and going to the streets shouting demands after suffering from floods or rains?

Working together is the key.. Not adding fuel to the fire.. It's better to look for a solution to each problem rather than pointing fingers as to who's to blame.. I heard a saying once from my sophomore year adviser: United we stand, divided we fall.. I agree wholeheartedly, don't you?

COME JOIN US

Welcome Home

When I wake up in the morning, I thank God for another day in my life and for all the blessings I have received so far.. I then keep my beddings and tidy up my bed only to see my brother all bunched- up in pillows and blankets on his side of the bed cushion..I usually help my mom in the morning: fetch water for the plants in our roof garden and the flowers in the front yard.. Sometimes I prepare the breakfast so that my dad and brother can eat before going to work and school respectively.. And so my day starts........

Being a bum can become quite a bore, believe me.. Yeah, I get to help my folks here and all that but everything seems so... ho- hum.. So to make my life a bit more fun, I go online and make friends.. I go to learn new stuff as well.. I searched for stuff to do and look at the treasure I found: TA- DA!  unlimitedzone.org.. Ain't I a lucky one?!?!?! (big smiles) Let me take you to a small tour around our home..

Our first stop is the forum index where the road map to our wonderful house is.. Here we have the shoutbox where you will find some of my brothers and sisters bonding with each other.. Talk shop, tease each other, and guide visitors and new family members inside our home.. Our receiving area gives you an overview on what fun and interesting stuff you can find inside our humble house and be overwhelmed with the endless possibilities that await you inside..

Next, we go to where our house rules are.. As with every other homes, we have regulations to live by so we can co- exist harmoniously and so that we won't just be a rowdy set of people.. We are a civilized bunch after all and so we have our laws.. Aside from the house rules, you'll also find formal introductions and where we welcome our greenhorns.. And to keep things fun and exciting, we offer contests and games where great prizes are at stake.. Being democratic, we accept feedback and suggestions, even constructive criticism from everyone and anyone..

We now go to where most of my brothers and sisters spend their time whenever they're in.. We are in the age of breaking technology and that's actually one of the reasons our home was built.. We take pride in our mobile area cause you see, many members of our family are sorta experts in these things so we have a special room for them.. Most of them are very helpful, and so aside from teaching us mere mortals and dummies about mobile tricks and all, they've also got an area here where anyone can state what their problems are and poof! In short order, the experts will come flying in and help save the day..

Of course, we have a place for computers too.. We know, we know.. These seemingly innocent boxes started it all.. My brothers and sisters being geniuses and all in this field as well, we have a place specially for them.. Presenting our pc zone: here you can learn new tricks, new programs that fit your techy needs, and learn things to really personalize PCs.. Now, everybody will always encounter problems with these things but feel free to ask.. The pros will gladly lend a hand..

What's life without a little fun, right? In our home we value fun so much that we're also willing to help those game junkies.. Don't worry about where to get the latest games or applications for your gaming consoles.. We've got it all here. We also encourage artistic talents, bookworms, musicians, and movie afficionados.. We love to share it all so feel free to enter our multimedia zone.. For those who like downloads, we also share some useful stuff with them..

In keeping up with the latest in news, politics, government, religion, and all other topics under the sun, we have our lounge.. In keeping our relationship healthy and full of growth, we encourage everyone to participate in discussions, respect their opinion, and correct misunderstandings if necessary.. Just to pass time, we play.. Oh, we are all children at heart so fun and games are highly recommended..

Now that's our home in general.. Simple yet very interesting, helpful but not boring.. My online home is open and free for all.. It's been a part of my life ever since, and it will always be.. So whenever I log in, it's as if someone is saying, "welcome home"..

Broken Pearls

there is something wrong.. i'm supposed to be over it now but... how do i say this.. i guess, i'm still hoping for something.. that tiny little spark has not died of its own accord.. it still hasn't died, even now.. it hurts so  much.. so much that i wish i was numb, so i can't feel the pain.. it's difficult, really difficult living with these feelings.. i'm choking with it..

here come the tears.. i fought and lost.. they are falling, one by one, drop by drop.. like pearls.. to be part of the sea..  pieces of me, lost.. gone forever.. they've become part of the air i breathe.. i will not get them back..

once again my soul is wounded, broken.. i've gone through this countless times.. my heart, battle- scarred.. i am weary, tired from everything i have to deal with.. my mind is blank, my soul empty.. shattered to pieces.. no refuge.. never to be whole again..